Ayoko Nang Matali

Sa kaibigang di mapagkakatiwalaan

Sa syotang walang pakielam

Sa estrangherong kinaiinggitan

Sa magulang na di nagpaparamdam

Sa iniibig kong iba na ang mahal

 

Sa matrikulang di makatarungan

Sa maestrang  walang pinagbibigyan

Sa kursong di ako nasisiyahan

 

Sa trabahong mabagal ang pera

Sa gobyernong di gumagawa ng paraan

Sa pulisyang di maaasahan

Sa batas na kulang sa lohika

Sa bansang bahagya ng umunlad

 

Sa nakaraang di makalimutan

Sa kasalukuyang puro problema

Sa kinabukasang walang kasiguraduhan

 

Sa planong malabo na

Sa pangarap na napakataas pa

Sa paghintay na walang kamatayan

Sa pag-iyak na walang napapala

Sa tadhanang di mapapalitan

 

Sa mundong mapanghusga

Sa lipunang mataas ang batayan

Sa mga tanong na walang kasagutan

 

Ayoko na.

Nakakasawa na.

 

Ang gusto ko ay matali

At mahigpit na puluputin

Ng seguridad na tayo ay may KARAPATAN

At kalayaan na pumili

Upang hindi na muli matali

Sa boses na hindi atin

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Love Is Not A One-Way Ticket

Love is not a one-way ticket

Which will take you to that far end of the road

And not know your way back.

 

Love is a round trip.

It’s about you giving me a ride

Go somewhere new and unfamiliar

Then come home together;

To share smiles and stories

While we plan where to go next tomorrow.

 

Because love is about safety.

Me trusting you where you’ll take me

And you not letting me go,

Wherever we may be.

Someday, I Will Stop Writing About You

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Someday, I will stop writing about you

Oh, but not today

‘Cause today, my thoughts are still about you

How I wish I can make them go away

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It hurts to wake up with my side empty

You used to be there

You’d stare even when my hair’s messy

So now, though you’re gone, I won’t fix my hair

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Then I go brush my teeth and wash my face

You used to hug me from behind

You’d whisper to me, “I love you always.”

I wash again to shake you off my mind

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I see the stairs and remember that date

We used to race to the kitchen

You’d call me “Princess” and prepare my  plate

Now I race with myself, eat if I can

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I run back to my room and start to cry

Today I’ll write the saddest lines

Find all the synonyms of hate but why

Does my mind play back all our happy times

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Someday I will stop writing about you

But I can’t tonight

I promise I want to, but I want you 

And you want her, so again I will write

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I wish I would run out of words to say

Like how you ran away

Pathetic but I chase you anyway

I don’t let you know, but I wish you’d stay

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This will be my last stanza about you

My last tear for you

One final line and I’ll stop, I need to

Someday I will stop writing about you

Tonight I will stop writing about you

One last line and I will stop, I have to

But I still love you

Tomorrow I’ll write another poem or two

About you.

 

Mortem: 4 Issues That Kill You Slowly

I’ve taken into account actual stories by people I’ve confronted. It scares me how there are just too many problems out there, too heavy to turn even the bravest into cowards. Read on, relate and note my last stanza. Happy Halloween, fellas.

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Deeper than an ocean is a secret

Darker than night is a controversy

Scarier than ghosts or monsters is DEATH

of justice, truth, happiness and hope

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You may be a smarty-pants or a kick out

Either way you’ll know what I’m talking about

Your academe or mine is, without a doubt,

A pool of cheats and liars, please hear me out.

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Study, get high grades. Copy, get high grades.

When you fail, oh professors can be swayed

Debarred? Backers can easily be paid

Politics in schools exist in all shades

RIP JUSTICE

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Judgments are all over the newspaper

It’s normal too, to get from a stranger

But when a friend judges, it’s way harsher

To know the one you trust – is a hater.

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Love the opposite sex, they have something to say

Love the same sex, worse things are said to someone gay

Until facts and stories get twisted in a way

Your side is then unheard at the end of the day

RIP TRUTH

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You’re chased by many; your options are vast

But there is none you trust enough to last

Consecutively, you dump guys so fast

Why? It’s because you’re stuck in the past

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You still think of him, but does he think of you?

He left you hanging with a question or two

So what? He’s gone! There is nothing you can do

Closures may mean not to have a closure too

RIP HAPPINESS

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When everything else fails, where would you run?

Your family’s of course choice number one

But what if your brother or sister’s gone?

Not dead, just turned against you – good as done…

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You run out of options, you have tried them all

Eventually, there’s even no one to call

“Must not give up, must be as strong as the wall”

“Mom needs me,” there’s no more choice but to stand tall

RIP HOPE

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But if you’ve been to the cemetery, you’ll realize

Many are already dead but you have a shot at life

For a great tomorrow: leave yesterday and LIVE TODAY

Justice, truth, happiness and hope dies, but don’t die with them

RIP DEATH

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P.S If you feel alone, leave me a message. I promise you’re not.

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Pusoy Dos: A Poem on the Politics of Love


Ang pagmamahal ay parang pulitika

Magpapakitang tao lang sa simula

Tatadtarin ka ng mga pangakong madrama

Pagkakatiwalaan mo ba siya? Tanga.

Binoto mo sa pag-aakalang tama

Pinili mo sa seguridad na siya na

Ang solusyon sa ‘yong sangkatutak na problema

Pagkakatiwalaan mo naman, tanga.

Nagkamali ng isa, pinatawad mo na.

Nagkamali muli, pinatawad mo pa?

Nalinlang ka sa “sorry” niyang nakakabingi na!

Pagkakatiwalaan mo ulit? Tanga.

Hanggang sa pera mo’y nalustay sa wala

Pati pag-iisip mo’y kinurakot niya

“Bakit nga ba siya ang pinili,” napaisip ka

Sabi nila “Vote Wisely”, di mo ginawa

Puso pinairal, sumugal… ‘Yan niloko ka.

Pinagkatiwalaan mo kasi, tanga.

Independent on Independence Day: 5 Vitamins for the Broken-Hearted

I have noticed, many couples break up this month. How ironic because in other countries, June is the wedding month. Or maybe, each of the couple is simply complying to our country’s independence day.

Memories, there’s so much they hold. Once a relationship ends, who wouldn’t look back right? How you guys met, his old texts, his gifts, your unforgettable dates, your pictures together, those are just some of what’s painful to reminisce. Too much tears are rolling down that somehow, you can’t control them anymore. Maybe those memories are the ones stopping you from moving on, from accepting that “we” is now simply just “you” and “I”.

But no, this blog won’t be all about those drama and sht. I’m all about life, you know, how happy and worthwhile each day should be. That’s why I can’t bear seeing boys and girls devastated because of love. Yes I know we’re all too young for this, but that’s what makes it more hurtful. Younger people don’t deserve sorrow. We should be having fun all the time, celebrating our youth! That is why if you felt even just a little pain from reading the paragraph before this, then this blog is for you. I understand the pain you’re going through.

For the broken-hearted, here are some things to be optimistic about. Life’s too short for you to just spend it on crying every night. A few vitamins in life could help. Smile and read on.

1. Vitamin A – Accept, but never forget.

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The memories both of you shared are too precious to be forgotten. We have learned a lot from these, that’s why. Yes you’ll feel ouchy every time you’ll remember the laughter you had experienced with him. But you must know that all of those things are already in the past. Accept that everything’s different now, that those can’t be brought back anymore. What matters now is how you’ll make new and even better memories in the present. It doesn’t have to be necessarily spent with a boyfriend or anything. You got your friends and family with you, don’t forget.

2. Vitamin B – Be busy all the time.

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Of course, it’s not easy to keep your mind off those sweet moments with him. I bet, anywhere you look, everything simply reminds you of him right? Well the only solution there is to keep yourself busy. Since it’s already June, it would be easier because you’re in school everyday. Study hard. (I know most won’t consider this option. LOL) Or if you don’t feel like it, join organizations. Get involved everywhere you possibly could. But another more fun option is go out with your friends/family ALL the time. Be with different people. Go to different places. Just use most of your time doing other things. You know what happens when you’re alone and quiet at your room right?

3. Vitamin C – Take Care of yourself.

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Many people, especially girls, forget to take care of themselves after the break up. Some would even want to try to get sick just to know if the ex would care. No ladies, that’s just so wrong. Now’s even the perfect time to pamper yourself, to become 10x more beautiful! Imagine, if you feel like rebelling through alcohol and partying, you’ll look even more haggard. And your ex’s ego would bloat because he’ll feel he’s such a big loss. Dress better, make friends, take care of yourself honey and bloom! He would surely regret of ever letting you go.

4. Vitamin D – Drop those sht and move on.

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How will you appreciate today if you keep looking back on yesterday? Sweetie, don’t waste your day by crying or becoming preoccupied with bad thoughts. Who knows how much happiness you will be bringing to others if you would just smile, right? You’re actually doing yourself a favor too. Too much frowning would increase chances of aging. We wouldn’t want that to happen, would we? Plus, you might bump into the man who truly deserves you. One smile could mean a thousand more if he really (possibly) is the one.

5. Vitamin E – Everything you do, everything you are, offer to the Lord.

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Nothing happens by chance. That’s one quote I’ve learned to never forget every time something unfavorable happens to me. Your life has been well-planned by God already. If your ex or other people had broken your trust, give it to no one but to Him alone. It’s true that sufferings make you stronger and mistakes make you wiser. Just think, these broken relationships are just challenges for you to finally learn how to appreciate life in other forms. When you’re broken hearted, you tend to forget that breakfast is served to you everyday, that your arms and feet are still in place and that you are given by God another breath of life each time you wake up. See? There are a lot of blessings to be thankful for! Forget your worries, everything has a solution for sure. Just let go, and let God.

There you have it! Just 5 vitamins to a healthy living! Don’t waste a day, because you’ll be asking a lot of them when you near death. But let’s not think about that now. And yeah, before I forget, just because your relationship ended, you would start to become bitter on love. Continue to love still, it’s one of Jesus’ two greatest commandments. But this time, focus on yourself first for you to learn how to love others more; but this time, with the wiser and better YOU.

Carpe Diem! Ft. How My Summer Felt Perfect

Now that I’m supposed to prepare for school and stuff, I’m here in my bedroom making a blog. Well, there are no classes in UST every first day of the AY. Just one mass is held. So I have an excuse now to write, right? Read on though it’s long, because you’ll be getting something useful at the end.

My roommate won’t be arriving ‘til next week. I have transferred to a new dormitory, so I don’t know anyone around here. With no skill of cooking rice, I don’t even know how I’ll be having my lunch later. Who to talk to? Aside from the gloomy atmosphere in my room, you can just imagine how uninviting the place is because I’m alone and all. Good thing my laptop’s here to comfort me. Some memories do too. Last summer was just too unforgettable. Let me share to you how much happiness this season has brought me.

Many of us wish to have a summer job at Starbucks, McDo etc. I do too. But where I have worked is more than what I have hoped for. It’s actually something I am passionate with. Dance workshops have been my thing ever since high school. To learn is fulfilling. But to be the one to teach, it’s overwhelming. This job lasted for 4 weeks. Together with some teachers and more student assists like me, we had to teach both kids and teens. In a day, 6 days in a week, we worked from 8am-5pm. If you’d think about it, this is a very tiring job. Especially for someone as thin as me, I’d need all the energy possible. But it’s surprising to know that though this workshop tires us physically, we never got sick of it. We didn’t even feel like we were working. Just the willingness to be able to share with others our knowledge and talent is enough to get us through every day. No regrets. No wasted moments.

The day of our students’ recital has arrived. Though I had the chance to host this event and to dance too at one part, I was never completely happy. Well, yes, we have waited for this day to come. To be able to finally showcase to friends and families what they have learned is good. But the idea of this workshop ending is too sorrowful. Nevertheless, I felt proud. Feeling like parents, yes. Actually, I felt more proud than them. Because seeing your child dance is amazing. But to see children showcase what you have taught them, what you have worked hard for, it felt like an achievement to me. Tears almost ran down my eyes as they shake their bodies and move their hips for the last time.

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They were more than students to me because they had special places in my heart. It takes effort to come up with enough dance steps. But to make memories, without effort our hearts were quickly filled with hundreds. Each day was something to be truly treasured. I won’t forget all the laughter we had shared together. That is what others fail to realize sometimes. In dancing, as you progress with enough choreography, friendships develop too. One reason why I enjoy dancing so much is not only do you get to exhibit what you can do to others, but also you get to do what you really love with people you love as well. Make steps; make friends at the same time. Learn how to shake, learn how to mingle too. What we were last dance workshop, we weren’t just friends. We were a family, made whole by the same passion.

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I thought my summer ends there. But no, I was given another opportunity to dance one more time at an event where our audience consisted of dancers and choreographers from all over the Philippines. Of course, with an amazing choreographer like Sir Madz, our dance was a success. I felt too fortunate to still become a part of it, since I have graduated already. God’s goodness is just too incomparable. Thank you, Lord.

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Not only that, the last days of my summer were spent with the people really close to my heart. For this season to end is a sad thing. But I regretted nothing. No day was wasted. This was the kind of life I wish to live, and I hope you guys do too. I dream of a life without wasted opportunities. Seize the day as possible as you could. Don’t spend one day without anything significant happening. Make sure to use all the time you have left either with the people you love or with materials you’ll be learning something from. Dance. Sing. Read. Help others. Discover something new every day. The number of years you’ll be living is counted. But the memories you’ll be making, the lessons you’ll be learning and the discoveries you’ll be finding out while you’re still alive, it’s infinite.

What’s more important is you shouldn’t merely think of what person you wish to become. Rather, aspire to be someone other persons would dream to become. Seize the day. Especially now it’s June once again. Have fun. But always remember to strive in becoming valuable people, worthy of life in this world. Make a difference today. Carpe diem!